Saturday, March 24, 2012

Free to be ME!

WHEW! I took quite the break from blogging...
Well these past 2 weeks have been nice and semi relaxing
I am now on Spring Break which is very nice! This is also my last weekend at Curb Shots :(
It's sad and happy at the same time. Sad because I like all my customers and the girls I work with, happy because it means I'll have some more free time to be able to go to the races and enjoy my weekends especially since next quarter the ONLY day off from school that I'll have is Friday's!
Besides I have a job already and I'm going to be working at Hannegan again this summer which I LOVED doing! So I'm excited for that to happen!
I dyed my hair to brown/black I really like it! It's different but I feel like it makes me look more mature. Blonde was KILLING my hair! No matter how good I was at heat protectant and deep conditions it wasn't saving my hair from the color damage every time I would go in to get a "trim" after dying my hair it would easily end up being 2" taken off and that wasn't HELPING me GROW OUT MY HAIR!! So my wonderful hairstylist and myself decided that this would be the healthiest thing to do for my mane! 
On other news: RACE SEASON HAS BEGUN!
Do you know what that means! RACE WEEKENDS! Those are the best because that means road trips and RACES! HELLO!! :)
OHH!
I almost forgot, I talked to the Miss Whatcom County Director Carol and she gave me all the details on my scores from the pageant and what the judges thought. Her and I had a great conversation about it; the judges pretty much came down to the fact that I was "young" and it showed....ok....ummm....I'm 18??? What did you expect some full grown woman?? I understand that the idea is poised, confidence, and a role model...BUT...that crap doesn't really cut it for me considering the average age of the girls running was NINETEEN!!! Can someone please explain that to me a little more!? uh, anyways.. She and I talked about how there isn't much I can do to change the fact that I'm young except for just letting time work it's magic. Carol knows me better than the judges do and she said that I shouldn't try to change anything and just let the time work, because the difference in me from the last year to this was HUGE and "she can only imagine what another year will do" 
I'm not entire sure whether I'll run again or not..a lot of time is between now and November so yet again only time will tell what will happen! And in the mean Time I'm going to enjoy nothing more than to be me! Go to college, raise my puppy, spend time with the love of my life, and whatever new exciting things decide to happen!

Au Revouir!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Mysterious Ways!

Even though I didn't win Miss Whatcom County 2012 it was an extremely humbling experience! It opened my eyes to something I have always loved and been involved in but never truly pursued and that's my love of performing! 
The stage is my domain and always has been!! I'm more comfortable in front of a huge crowd than a room of people! That's why the tides are changing for me I am pursuing auditioning for Bellingham's local women's choir Allegra as well as preparing to audition for the Bellingham Theater Guilds production of Annie Get Your Gun! 
At first I was absolutely devastated that I hadn't won ANYTHING at Miss Whatcom County, well nothing that was announced anyways! I was floored!! The minute that I got off the stairs from our pictures I was running for my family choking back tears because I truly believed that all my hard work and effort would have at least got me 1st or 2nd runner-up but I guess the judges just had something against blondes! =P 
As my family and I have been talking about it in the last two days I realized, yup! God sure did have a reason for me not winning and that was showing me that performing is where I belong...who knows maybe I'll switch entirely transfer to Western and enter into their Choral and Dramatic Arts program.....??? Sounds good to me! :)

Au Revouir!!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Today's the Day!

Wow! Just wow! Words just can't even describe how I'm feeling this morning! I've waited and worked for this moment for 3 months and now it's here! :) My interview is this morning at 9:45! I'm not nervous actually I'm really excited! I can't wait to show the judges who I am and why I'll be the best Miss Whatcom County!
I've been praying every day that God will lay it on the judges hearts that I'm the right fit! Deep down inside of me I know that God truly has a purpose for me in this, there's something much bigger than my own desire to win that's pushed me so hard. 
If you do happen to read this today please just send up a prayer for me! Pray for my strength cause this is gonna be a LONG DAY, and please pray that the Judges see the best parts of me! My diligent work ethic, my selflessness to help with any situation, my kind loving personality, and my determination to never let anything bring me down! 
I DO NOT fit in a cookie cutter shape! Never have never will and I LOVE THAT! I've been 5'2" since I was 10, since I was 13 years old I've had hips that I've loved and hated, and naturally blonde hair with brown eyebrows??(still don't get the last one) I'm not afraid to be who I am and give my opinions and that's something that people either love or hate about me! Sitting where I am right now in this moment I realize that I've done all that can be done the rest is in God's hands........and the judges!

Au Revouir!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

PAGEANT WEEK!

OHMYGURD!!! It's Pageant Week!!! EHHHHHHKKKKKKK!!!
I'm a huge ball of emotions this week some where in the middle between anxious, excited nervous, and for some odd reason really JOYOUS! Everyday is a new day with a new adventure and new accomplishments waiting to be met! I've never felt more confident in who I am than I do right now! It's great because it's giving me so much momentum to succeed and become Miss Whatcom County 2012! Nothing has really brought me down!
(Not even the fact that my father decided to post (like a teenager) on my Facebook wall about our current "relationship" issues) 
But did that bring me down? NOPE I responded by deleting the comment and writing him a lovely e-mail saying either get in or get out of my life! (Still waiting for a reply from my PARENT) 
My schedule this week is very VERY  busy starting YESTERDAY!

Monday: 8:00am - 9:30am English Class
9:30am - 11:30am Volunteer in the Foundation
11:30am - 2:30pm National ServSafe Final (culinary)
2:30pm - 5:00pm FREE TIME (very near and dear to my heart :)
5:30pm - 6:30pm Meet with Alli (interview coach) 
7:00pm - 9:00pm Pageant Meeting

Yup that was my schedule yesterday and on top of that it was my Grandma's birthday and it decided to start SNOWING!!!!! SOO not okay! Thankfully it stopped and is now melting! :)

Tuesday: Bikini Wax @ 2:30, Warehouse pageant @ 6:30 -?
Wednesday:  English 8-9:30 am, FREE DAY!!!
Thursday: Tech rehearsal 3:00pm-8:00pm
Friday: Dress Rehearsal 3:00 - 8:00pm
SATURDAY!!!!: Interview @ 9:45, Arrive @ WCC @ 5pm, PAGEANT STARTS @ 7:30!!

yup it's THAT close!!! XD
I'm so so So SO SO excited! ah :)
okay I'm gonna go do something other than blogging now! :)